Ten Things I Think About Going Home on the LIRR Today

1. Maybe I should try writing again. Maybe that will help me make sense of it all.


2. Words and phrases that could describe my current state: anchorless, unmoored, adrift, underwater, raw, flayed, without a net. And, lost. Lost is a good one.


3. Fine, I was right about going into self-preservation mode. But, I also think that I was right to feel the way I did. So, I don't regret it.


4. This does not change a thing, really, but cannot be a bad thing. Right?


5. Sleep might help.


6. People can surprise you if given half a chance and if you let them.


7. I wish that I could stop thinking.


8. Saying thank you is insufficient.


9. I'm lucky in many respects. I have to remember that.


10. Breathing is a form of relief. I have to remember that, too.